So here we are again. I've got to have some shit written by Tuesday, so when I meet with the Professor we have something to talk about other than 'ideas'. That helps, but I want to be much further along with this thing than that because of the time constraints of the assignment.

Like I said, I think I can use something like how my religious beliefs were shaped by my experiences with religion. Damn, now I have to look up the email I sent to the professor, I want to know exactly how I put it in the email....

shaped my ideas about theistic systems. An example of the personal stuff in the paper would be a few incidents that had an effect on the way I think in that regard, and then some instances on how my thinking has affected me in society. Am I missing the scope of the assignment?

Yeah, sounds like something I might be able to do. When I got my first drift of what the assignment was going to be about I was pretty confident I wouldn't have trouble coming up with ideas, because she said the article by this guy Allen G. Johnson about class in society was going to be involved. I can write all day about the ways people act because they think they are better than others.

Well, the paper is sposed to be 'personal reflection', which means you have to analyze personal experiences. Not as easy as I thought it would be. Again, I'm sposed to be brainstorming here, using this as a free write, but instead I'm babbling on about bullshit hoping something will come to me. Kinda like in the movie where John Travolta has a brain misfire, and it gives him a revelation. hehehe Yeah, I'm waiting for lightning to strike.

Let's see, I've already mentioned the incident during communion, and I thought about all the boring classes in catechism once a week we had to suffer through. I think we had to endure that mainly so my mother could have a few extra minutes to herself once a week before the herd came in after school. Anyway, that's just too general, and there's not much I remember except for the ruler on the hand when someone fucked up. I don't have a problem with corporal punishment, I'll beat my kid's ass if he needs it for sure. They were beating us kids though basically because we weren't showing the proper 'reverence' for the subject matter.... the cell just rang, or beeped rather, and it was my wife calling from the phone in the bedroom. :) She didn't feel like getting outta bed, but wanted to make sure I knew to get her oldest son outta bed for work. So I went in and got some snugglin in. That is the best, her hair is all mussed up and in her face, and she's smiling beneath that and lookin all se...

K, I'm sposed to be workin here, and she has to sleep cause she's workin tonight. Oh shit!! I just remembered I have to get to the store for some things she wanted me to get for dinner.

So where was I? Oh yeah, corporal punishment in catechism. There was that, but nothing specific that I remember. But I think I might be able to come up with some things about how my thinking since has affected how I have been treated when people found out I had atheistic tendencies. First of all, there's the basic stuff, like on dictionary.com, included in the definition for atheism is the word 'immoral'. This has nothing to do with me personally, but it's just an indication of how some people perceive atheistic principles in others. Is that the way I want to put that? I dunno. Anyway, immediately when my thinking started along those lines I thought of my brother. Him being really into religion, it has affected our relationship, cause now all he wants to do is convert me, and all I want to do is stupid shit with him because anything serious leads to sermons. So, it's getting harder and harder to talk to him without getting stupid about it, stupid on my part that is. I know, some would say just proclaiming atheistic beliefs, or nonbeliefs, is stupid.

Ok, I'm getting off track again. I have to get to the store anyway.....