I'm sitting in Physiology lecture today, watching the instructor set up, when I see the girl that sits next to me in lab come in with her sister. They are from Iran, I think I mentioned that, and her sister looks older. I saw them yesterday as well coming out of the chemistry building as I was entering. She is nice, but her sister looks kinda mean. She, my lab partner, was walking up to the front of the lecture hall to talk to the TA there, and I wasn't really watching them, just noticing, that is until I saw them conversing before she started heading up front. Her sister sat down just a few rows in front of the row I occupied, which is usually the last row, and one section over. As she sat down, she watched her younger sister as she made her way forward. She didn't just watch her though, I coulda swore she was keeping a close eye on her. I was talking to my wife about it today, and she said that it would make sense, the older is a hard core fundamentalist in the Islam faith, her with her sister, both of whom are getting an education, but it seemed the older is looking after the younger, making sure she doesn't stray. That was my impression anyway, as I watched the scene. It was spooky, the way her sister kept an eye on her as she talked to the TA and then made her way back to sit with her sister.

Anyway, back to the story. I think I have a thesis. YEAH!! Well, maybe. See, the author alludes to family ties and background and such, but never really comes out to say that this is the whole problem. You are made to think, at least I was, that his problem was with having 'darky' blood in him, but I think it could've been that he had no family to speak of. Remember, he is brought up by his black 'Grandmere', who we are lead to believe is his biological grandmother... or at least I am lead to believe this. I'm kinda naive about things I'm reading... well, not naive, I just don't get into the nitty gritty of what the author is 'really' trying to say most of the time. Buuut I think this could be something, I think it has potential as a thesis.

Of course, to my inexperienced mind it has potential. I know that it's perfectly possible someone more creative than I could read that and raise the bullshit flag. Anyway, there it is. I have to explore that possibility, and probably use it for my first draft. I only have a couple more days to mull over this shit. Granted they are 'weekend' days, but I have a lot of studying to do for tests next week. I have a chemistry lab due, chemistry test on Thursday, Physiology test on Wed I think it is, physiology lab practical on Monday, Math test on Monday (although I really don't have to study for that one, the reason behind taking 112, as it would be easy for me but still serve to get me back in the swing of things as far as equations and logical thinking goes), and there was something else.... oh yeah, the draft that has to be done for Tuesday. Physiology and Chemistry I have got to study for, the lab report has to be done by Tuesday morning, and I guess I have to study for the practical as well. There are the evenings next week, so most of this weekend will be spent on the draft and my lab report.

So, back to this thesis. I made another note as I reread yesterday... 'Is that what the author is saying, that we are nothing without a background? This man has been denied a past, or a past worth... that lives up to the 'white' social standard. See, the guy has no parents. Nobody mentions a father to him at all, and his mother died while he was an infant. Could I tie this in with the fact he's a half breed? I think it has a lot to do with the story, or the reason behind the story, in light of what little I dug up about the author. Maybe he was denied a past because nobody would accept him into their 'community'. The whites called him nigger, the blacks ... I have to look this up... shit!!! my pages are all out of order now....

No, the blacks and yellows didn't call him anything, it was his grandmother that had called THEM niggers, after she caught him trying to play with them. Their parents bade their children not to have anything to do with the boy on account of these insults.

He doesn't start out to avenge his past, but sort of comes on it, or rather it comes upon him, and he just goes with the flow. It's only when he starts gaining things that could be taken away, or coming into situations that could be altered if it were found out where he 'really' came from, that he starts really being ashamed of his past, or lack of proper 'family ties'.